Book 20- Signs and a Vision

Why is it so hard to be a beggar? People are always up in my grill; hating on me. I mean seriously why cant they just let me be there and not do anything about it. They are dogs. They are animals that are just let out and dont respect anyone. I mean they have women come into MY house and sleep with them nightly, while they are trying to get my wife's hand in marriage. NO; NOT COOL. They are treating Penelope like she is not there. They say that they like her, but really they are just using her. This is making me soo mad. I cant sleep, and this is bad. If i cant sleep than i wont be ready for any tasks or danger that would come my way. Its just i wish there was a way that the suitors could make Penelope happy until i could. 

Book 19-

Heyy Its Penelope.

So last night i had the weirdest dream, I have been pondering over it for the longest time. I really want to get all the info out to everyone and try to analyze this dream. My dream was about an eagle swooping down and killing these geese. 

I have been thinking a lot about two brides that my subconscious mind could put this data in. I came up with one bridge that leads to useless information. The second bridge that i came up with is a bridge that leads to information that is real, and that will be used in later life.

After thinking about my dream for a very long time I think i have came up with a solution to my dream. I feel that the geese represent the suitors. I feel that the eagle represents Odysseus. I feel that soon Odysseus will come and kill all the suitors. I feel that this dream goes into the bridge that goes with the information that is useful. 

I hope this is what my dream actually mean. 

xoxox

Book 18- Blows And A Queens Beauty

Yo Whats up yall!! 

Earlier today I talked about things that might not have been clear to you all. Let me go over the things that i said. 

I first talked about how we cant rely on the gods. We just take them for granted and this is not good because if the gods don't like us were screwed. I personally know this because I have had some gods not on my side. 

The next thing that i talked about that might have not been clear is that when I was happy, i took things way to fast and made lots of mistakes. I had such a carefree life, and not look where i am. I am stuck here getting beat up by the suitors. But just wait, their time for death is coming soon... very soon. 

The third thing that i talked about is that i have learned that the rules that the gods make you follow and will take the advice. You cant have a second thought about the advise that they give you. Take it and follow it! I used to fight against the gods, and lots of bad things happen to me. I have learned my lesson. 

The last thing that i talked about that i might have not been unclear is that i have to go to the suitors and finish the job that i was meant to do. I need to fight, and kill all of them and re take my spot in this manor. This has to happen! I have to do this.

Well see yall later!

the big O is out!

Book 17- The Beggar at the Manor

It is so hard to keep a disguise around your house. I am good at fighting physically against people. That is my talent. I don't like fighting conflicts "emotionally" That is not my battle. I have to go into the manor and pretend to be a stupid beggar and have the suitors do whatever they want to me. I know this is all part of a greater plan to get back at them, but this plan just sucks. I go into the Manor and the first thing that the suitors do to me is treat me horribly. They are forced to give me a place to stay and food to be put into my belly, but otherwise they treat me terribly. Usually when welcomed into a home, you are treated with respect, but not here. I mean seriously... But the joke is on them, they dont know that im going to come and kill them when they least expect it. HAHAHA

Book 16- Father and Son

Will I be a good father? There are so many things that I just excel at but being a father is just not one of them. I would rather be at war than go through the pain of being rejected. What if they already moved on and don't need me there. I have gotten so far dealing with the battles that are not supposed to be fought with guns, but this is the hardest battle that I have to face. Usually parents are so excited to be parents, but with me its different. I am the opposite of everyone. When Telemakhos arrives at the swineherds hut, I was still in disguise as a begger. Athena came down in disguise and gave me the confidense to reveal my identity to Telemahos. At first we were in shock but then we were united. It felt great! Being a father wasn't as hard as i thought it would be. We then started to plan our revenge on the suitors. We wanted to surprise the suitors by coming into to palace dressing up as beggers. Our plan got foiled because the men of Telemakhos announced to the town the arrival of Telemakhos and ruined our attack on the suitors. The suitors were now ready for the arrival of Telemakhos and wouldn't let two beggers let them be fooled. 

Chapter 12- Sea Perils and Defeat

I have a long Journey ahead of me. I decided that to ease the pain from my mind that I should go give Elpenor a proper burial. I spend one more night with Kirke and learn about the obstacles that i will face returning to Ithaca. She tells me of a monster who will eat the heads off of my men, of a seductive song that will be played, and a whirl pool that will pull ships into the sea. She tells me how to defeat these three obstacles with as little damage as I can get. I put bees' wax in the mens ears to make sure that they will not get seduced by the song that will be played. I went straight through the monster who eats the mens heads off. We got through will only six of our men getting eaten. That is a pretty good success. We then approached the island of Trinacia. I wanted to go right past the island but i was out ruled by my men. Usually all the crew agrees with what the captain wishes, but not in my case. My crew has over ruled me in many situations. Just our luck we got stuck there for a whole month. When we finally got to sea, the rough seas landed us to the island of Kylpso. The rest is history from there. 

Book 11- the Gathering of Shades

Visiting the underworld caused so many past pains to come up, and get in my head all over again. The past plays so many different problems that I have put to the back of my mind, and have forgotten about. When i entered the underworld something triggered my sub-conscious to bring back the memories of my previous dead soldiers, my mother, and my wife. These problems all gave me more fear for me to return to Ithaca . I talked to my recently dead soldier who told me i had not given him a burial, and that he would want one. I talked to my mother who told me she died of the grief of waiting for my return. I talked to Agamendmon about my wife who put the thought in my mind that my wife could be screwing around with the suitors, and that i have lost her to. This gave me the impression that there is no reason for me now to return to Ithaca. Usually people worry about others, and what they are thinking of. For me, I am just scared of the things that will start to remember. Do I have anything to go home to?